My problem is that I still believe the lie...

The lie that hard work pays off in the end. That if you are good, good things happen to you. That if you go to work everyday and do a good job you will be rewarded. I know this isn't true. I have lived that this isn't true. But yet, somehow, for some strange reason, my soft gooey center hasn't caught on. It hasn't learned that hard work just makes you the chump. And the only reward you get is a banana like you're a chimp.